I wrote some stuffs and I was on my way to say everything but my computer deleted it all. I am kind of mad for this but I know that it's for the best. I have to move on. I can't stay right next to you, waiting for you to see me. I can't just be the good friend forever. you are one of the best friend I have and I am proud of it but now I know that I gave you too much space and importance in my heart. I know now that I made a mistake. so i'm just gonna be your friend. as we used to be. and just let you go with her or whom ever you want to be with. I am happy to be you friend because you're a great guy but I realized this morning that everything was a lie. I mean, I was never special. I never had this special thing. I was just stupid and funny sometimes. just the good friend. I imagined so many things because of her. I mean, what she told me made me think and those thoughts were bullshit. I know it and I am so stupid to believe in it. but I still wanted to thank you for being such a friend sometimes. most of the time, you are here. but I know that it won't be forever. life is hard, short and it don't want to waste my time with non-sense and lies. So from now, you are my friend. only this. and I know it.
Edit of the 21st of December: It's weird to say it when you know what I wrote a year ago about you but I am fine. Just fine. Life is beautiful I think, don't you ?